Lastnight I almost decided to wean from breastfeeding.
We were at church and Constance would not stay calm for anything. She wanted to play and ... who can blame the girl?! All of the lights and people around just make her excited. So, I had to leave the sanctuary and go feed her, play with her, bounce her, and entertain her. Joshua doesn't mind doing this for me (well except for the feeding; I am obviously the only one with equipment), but I guess I just feel like I ought to be the one leaving with her. I don't feel right about feeding her in the middle of the sanctuary with a bunch of dudes around. Some women can, but it's just not for me. Anyway, it's been a few weeks since I have really been able to listen to a sermon and I was going crazy. I was able to hear some of it, but it's hard to focus. I'm a visual learner; I like to see the person talking while I am listening to them. You know? So I was ... annoyed?
Our plan was originally for me to reach 6 months. I've done that. However, in my heart, I know I am not really ready for us to give it up completely yet. She's starting solids and experimenting with other foods, but I really love nursing. It's convenient, free, easy, and soothing. (And when I say convenient ... I cannot tell you how much I loathe washing bottles. I've never had the experience of needing formula, but I am guessing that's a pain in the rear as well.)
So, I'm not really quitting. I'm just dealing with an older baby who is developing a personality and keeping her asleep/calm in church is a challenge. I just have to rearrange things a little.
That's not really just with breastfeeding. That is just an example. It's with everything. She's growing and changing so quickly and I am just doing my best to keep up!
But it's worth it. I want to continue nursing until she is ready for whole milk (when she is a year old) and I also want to hear good preaching. I need to hear it. So, no weaning for us right yet.
I guess that's all for today. :)